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Alywyn Sigurdson
« on: December 18, 2017, 02:36:28 AM »







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Story I : Past long gone yet faster than the present. - Current era. -
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~ October 1999 ~ Palomino Creek - Bed and staring at the ceilling wishing for something.

My life feels like a shell, except I don't know where it will land, and when. So far, it may never even land at all. That's how my life feels, it's like an endless routine, I cannot get rid of the feelings I've had during my times in the Army, it's not something I could ever get rid off.

This feeling is quite consuming, day by day, I just hold myself, part of me wishes there to be no more violence, no more war, I've had enough of it, I've seen enough of it.
But, another part of me, as shameful as it is to even think about it..
The other part of me craves it, I was already asked what I miss the most about war, the army, and if I loved it, and I just said, "Every goddamn second of it."

It's not something that will ever change, unless I go back on the field, but with my discharge, well, there might be doubts. One day I hope to rejoin and.
Well..Sometimes, I'm not sure, why would I rejoin? Why would I willingly send myself on whatever battlefield the Middle-East has to offer?
For my country? To protect the people? To bring stability and peace through freedom and democracy?

Or for myself? To satisfy the urge I deeply crave, and one I am sure, many other soldiers through the world felt and feel today as well?

When I say it like this, it just looks as if I was the random escaped from jail monkey who is about to go on a killing spree.
But it's not that, it's not that at all, and that's why I never tell anyone except another soldier, because they wouldn't understand.

Feeling the rush of blood in your veins, feeling as if every single one of your ancestor was looking at you with proud eyes as your finger pulls the trigger on a target. We willingly let ourselves be overtaken by some primitive desire, the desire of a warrior and of warfare, the adrenaline, the risk of death and killing, everything in the World doesn't matter in these seconds that feel like hours.

It's you, or them, and when it's them?
Goddamn, it feels better than getting your dick sucked by the most experienced of whores.
Matter of fact, I doubt there's something that feels better than warfare, yet, I am ashamed of feeling like this, and I just lie to myself everyday in order to try to live as if nothing ever happened.

Don't get me wrong, war, is Hell. And after what I've gone through? It's a place I'm going to be sent to eitherways.

Now, every second feels like hours.
Every second is as much empty as the other.
My life's a huge void, and there's nothing to fill it.
Nothing yet.



Help.





« Last Edit: August 15, 2018, 11:55:26 AM by Alywyn »

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Re: Alywyn Sigurdson
« Reply #1 on: December 18, 2017, 03:18:00 AM »
why does he look like he's getting sucked by a vortex


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Re: Alywyn Sigurdson
« Reply #2 on: December 18, 2017, 09:18:46 AM »
Very nice, always good to have more human characters around.

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Re: Alywyn Sigurdson
« Reply #3 on: December 18, 2017, 10:31:00 AM »
Did he just got raped?
Vwh rp wise a botch reflects many things. Viruses start scrying everywhere, arma.....uhuhm...roses start the toxicity.....Shan's comeback..Some animal type rav...uh hmmm. People think they are some leader type person here. In short if you join here you are done.

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Re: Alywyn Sigurdson
« Reply #4 on: December 18, 2017, 11:02:09 AM »
Sounds interesting.
Looking forward to rping wit ya
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Re: Alywyn Sigurdson
« Reply #5 on: December 18, 2017, 12:22:26 PM »
Thank you all!

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why does he look like he's getting sucked by a vortex
It's related to his current state of mind, psychological trauma from the Gulf War and such, the profile will change along his state, if it worsens or if it gets better, hope I answered your question!

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Very nice, always good to have more human characters around.
Thank you very much!

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Did he just got raped?
Oh no! None of that sort, he only participated in the Gulf War and came with a bad mental condition from it, Burned crispy bodies, fighting, explosion, the smoke from the oil wells covering the sky and such.
I hope I answered your question!

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Sounds interesting.
Looking forward to rping wit ya

Thanks a lot! I'm looking forward to this as well!

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Re: Alywyn Sigurdson
« Reply #6 on: December 18, 2017, 02:35:34 PM »
Looking forward to MG and break rules together.
Vwh rp wise a botch reflects many things. Viruses start scrying everywhere, arma.....uhuhm...roses start the toxicity.....Shan's comeback..Some animal type rav...uh hmmm. People think they are some leader type person here. In short if you join here you are done.

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Re: Alywyn Sigurdson
« Reply #7 on: December 18, 2017, 02:59:04 PM »
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Looking forward to MG and break rules together.

Hello! If you have an issue with me you can either go report it or PM me about it, no need to make a fuss about it here! stay awesome and have a nice day!

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Re: Alywyn Sigurdson
« Reply #8 on: December 18, 2017, 03:14:27 PM »
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Looking forward to MG and break rules together.

Hello! If you have an issue with me you can either go report it or PM me about it, no need to make a fuss about it here! stay awesome and have a nice day!
this is shan
shan is from pakistan
you know what that means
don't mind shan


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Re: Alywyn Sigurdson
« Reply #9 on: December 18, 2017, 03:17:08 PM »
yo man, don't listen to this Shan_Shaggity_Shag_Shahk_Shakur_Carl_Yao_Lin_Minecraft_Minola character guy, ok? you're doing good and whatever the reason your character has his profile blurred out is fine as it is

Also, your character has that bleary Thalassophobia up on his profile which is watered down. I don't know if you made that on purpose, but it has a message on it

good job man, looking forward to rp with you however it turns out

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Re: Alywyn Sigurdson
« Reply #10 on: December 18, 2017, 03:33:42 PM »
Alright friends! Thank you all for your support, looking forward to RP with all of you as well! Cheers!

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Re: Alywyn Sigurdson
« Reply #11 on: December 19, 2017, 12:24:45 AM »
Great cp mate, consider adding relationships, here's an exanple:

Richard Green: "You seem very cool and nice, Hah, just kiding, you're an autist."

- Rick.

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Re: Alywyn Sigurdson
« Reply #12 on: December 19, 2017, 11:02:11 AM »
looks good man, I like it

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Re: Alywyn Sigurdson
« Reply #13 on: December 19, 2017, 12:16:40 PM »
Thank you all!

Will soon update it with relations as soon as I meet more people!

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Re: Alywyn Sigurdson
« Reply #14 on: December 19, 2017, 12:31:21 PM »
dont forget alexandru

i rape u
Quote from: Jhin
“Art requires a certain cruelty.”
“THERE IS NO DRAMA IN A PEACEFUL DEATH!”
“YOU WILL PERFORM!”