« Last post by astra on December 13, 2022, 21:04:38 PM »
Fuck fuck fuck fuck FUCK. A CHOICE. I need...to make a fucking choice, I need to learn from my own mistakes! But what are my mistakes?! What's the unhealthy attachment I got myself into? What is it...WHAT IS IT?!
"Death is a sign that you need to learn to let go of unhealthy attachments in your life to pave the way to a fuller, more fulfilled life of deeper meaning and significance. Death teaches you to let go of outworn and outgrown ways of life and to move forward from them."
...I need to do that, don't I? Fuck...why? I...I know why but I don't want to accept it. I didn't want to accept it until this card got revealed to me last night. I guess...letting myself being bit by a vampire in the past and feeding them daily is a fucking big mistake...but she's my friend. I can't do it! I can't do it! I CAN'T DO IT. I need to do it...they aren't my friends, they are just self-righteous fucks who lust for power. I'm sorry, poor Malkavian. But immortality is not the way.